Choices

Over the past few years, I've become something of a cynic. I'm not quite sure how it happened, perhaps it's merely a consequence of living, but my naturally sunny personality has taken a marked turn to the dark side. I've tried disguising my increasing negativity as realism , but if I'm honest with myself I have to admit my outlook has been closer to pessimism than anything else. While this has done wonders for my dry wit, it has left me expecting the worse and fearful of getting my hopes up.

I've recently decided that this is not how I want to live my life and, therefore, I am consciously choosing to be an optimist. I'm not sure how this little experiment will work out - part of me is convinced I'll fail miserably - but I'm willing to give it a shot. Sure, I expect for my hopes to be dashed now and then, but disappointment is part of life, right? I'm tired of complaining about aspects of my life and not doing anything to change them. So I'm hoping that by taking the small step of changing my outlook I will build up the courage to change other parts of my life. This blog will be one part of my journey to a more optimistic, proactive self.